Everyone makes mistakes, some are able to be made right, some aren't. You never realise how much you miss something, or someone until you leave them behind. I made the mistake of taking someone for granted. Although people may think that as a family, mine are all very close, to an extent, maybe, but not as much as they think.
For years I have taken my mum and dad for granted, I guess I've just been lucky that I've always had them. They've always been there for me, through everything. It wasn't until tonight when I realised, just how much my mum means to me. I had the most indepth talk on the phone with her, and I can't even find words to say how nice it was to hear her voice, and have someone to talk to so much. I know I can tell her anything, I've just always chosen not to, but tonight, something changed.
I had never wanted to talk her so much in all my life, the one person I can trust with everything, one I know can help me, cheer me up when I'm down, have a laugh with, and tell my secrets to. Tonight I realised that my mum means everything to me, and I love her so much. I regret making the mistake of taking her for granted. Mum, I love you <3. Thank you for tonight, and thank you for always being there.
Thursday 29 January 2009
Wednesday 21 January 2009
Friendship
Is there ever a time when everything actually does go right for you, and if there is, does it last very long? Is there any hope out there for us who don't quite have it all? No matter how much thought you put into something, it never goes to plan, or happen in the way you want it to.
Friendship is important. Or so I was always told. Maybe it's how people are brought up, the values of things are different with each individual. For me, friendship was always high up, just under family. 'Friends may come and go, but family will always be there' is what my mum kept telling me, with each little falling out I had with friends years back. I thought I'd grown out of them games. Though it seems I'm not quite as mature as I thought.
Loss of a friendship never gets easy. In fact, for most, it gets harder as you age. The older you are, the more friendship means. It also means more serious issues to fall out over. But what if, what if the reason you fall out is neither childish, nor serious. What if it is simply a difference in opinion, or even just about friendship itself.
Is friendship really that important? Is it not worth salvaging? The best friendships are not always the longest, it's the communication. The best friendships are the ones where there's practically nothing you can't talk about. Where you make each other feel good, look after each other, be each other's rock.. The shoulder to cry on. The best friends are the ones that stand by you no matter what.. Won't have their opinions changed by what they hear, and will be there the minute you need them. That's a true friendship.. And that's something to be valued.
Think about the friendships you have, and the ones you cherish the most. Is anything worth losing a true friend over? Is there anything that can be done to save a friendship, or rebuild? Or is it just destroyed the moment that bond is broken?
Friendship is important. Or so I was always told. Maybe it's how people are brought up, the values of things are different with each individual. For me, friendship was always high up, just under family. 'Friends may come and go, but family will always be there' is what my mum kept telling me, with each little falling out I had with friends years back. I thought I'd grown out of them games. Though it seems I'm not quite as mature as I thought.
Loss of a friendship never gets easy. In fact, for most, it gets harder as you age. The older you are, the more friendship means. It also means more serious issues to fall out over. But what if, what if the reason you fall out is neither childish, nor serious. What if it is simply a difference in opinion, or even just about friendship itself.
Is friendship really that important? Is it not worth salvaging? The best friendships are not always the longest, it's the communication. The best friendships are the ones where there's practically nothing you can't talk about. Where you make each other feel good, look after each other, be each other's rock.. The shoulder to cry on. The best friends are the ones that stand by you no matter what.. Won't have their opinions changed by what they hear, and will be there the minute you need them. That's a true friendship.. And that's something to be valued.
Think about the friendships you have, and the ones you cherish the most. Is anything worth losing a true friend over? Is there anything that can be done to save a friendship, or rebuild? Or is it just destroyed the moment that bond is broken?
Monday 19 January 2009
New Year, New start
So it's 2009, a new year, new start, new blog!
What better time to start blogging? It's a new me, so I thought I'd try something new.
I don't know about anyone else, but for me, 2008 was a fairly bad year. For those who know me, you'll be aware I wasn't the happiest I could be. The usual, a break up, putting on weight and being miserable.. Worrying about things I didn't need to.. exams results etc, but I lost someone dear too. Until this year, I'd never experienced the effects of a death before. Sure I'd lost people, but I was far too young to understand. November 8th saw the inevitable loss of Elizabeth Leyshon, the bravest girl I knew, who for three years fought brain tumours and passed away in my arms at the age of 14. I'd never reached such a low, but she's in a better place, away from the pain and suffering.
Though she's gone, and I still miss her, I don't find myself waiting for anything, or worrying. I don't have any weight on my shoulders, I can be happy, and I am.
This year could be my year, who knows? It could be anyone's year! This is a new beginning, and I'm starting it on a high. I'm happier than I've been in very long time! I have things to look forward to, rather than things to dread, I have reasons to be happy, not to be sad. I've started this year, by loving myself, in the sense that, I'm not hating how I look because of my weight, I'm loving it, I'm happy with it, and I feel great! As most girls know, when you once again fit into your favourite pair of jeans, you feel on top of the world, and for me, that feeling's lasted for 3 weeks so far and still on going! :) 2009 is the year for happiness.
Don't let fears or worries get in the way of happiness. Life's too short. Lizzy proved that.
What better time to start blogging? It's a new me, so I thought I'd try something new.
I don't know about anyone else, but for me, 2008 was a fairly bad year. For those who know me, you'll be aware I wasn't the happiest I could be. The usual, a break up, putting on weight and being miserable.. Worrying about things I didn't need to.. exams results etc, but I lost someone dear too. Until this year, I'd never experienced the effects of a death before. Sure I'd lost people, but I was far too young to understand. November 8th saw the inevitable loss of Elizabeth Leyshon, the bravest girl I knew, who for three years fought brain tumours and passed away in my arms at the age of 14. I'd never reached such a low, but she's in a better place, away from the pain and suffering.
Though she's gone, and I still miss her, I don't find myself waiting for anything, or worrying. I don't have any weight on my shoulders, I can be happy, and I am.
This year could be my year, who knows? It could be anyone's year! This is a new beginning, and I'm starting it on a high. I'm happier than I've been in very long time! I have things to look forward to, rather than things to dread, I have reasons to be happy, not to be sad. I've started this year, by loving myself, in the sense that, I'm not hating how I look because of my weight, I'm loving it, I'm happy with it, and I feel great! As most girls know, when you once again fit into your favourite pair of jeans, you feel on top of the world, and for me, that feeling's lasted for 3 weeks so far and still on going! :) 2009 is the year for happiness.
Don't let fears or worries get in the way of happiness. Life's too short. Lizzy proved that.
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