Moods

What is it that changes our mood? How do we go from being quite happy, to suddenly being down? I read once, that it only takes one bad thing to make you unhappy, but to cheer you up, it takes five good things. Does this mean, that unhappiness is a stronger emotion, or merely an easier one to have?

Personally, I find myself more in a happier mood than I am a bad one, and I can honestly say, I don’t know what makes me so happy! Today I woke up and saw the sun blazing through my window, lighting my whole room up, and for a slight moment, it felt like summer, my favourite time of the year and this in itself brightened up my day… Literally! Maybe we need to have something good start our day to make a good mood last… Wake up on the right side of the bed. What does that expression mean? I have pondered this many a time, wondering whether it has hidden meaning, or if it’s a metaphor for something. If I woke up on the wrong side of my bed, then I’d have a whopping big lump on head! Not really something that will make me happy…

Some people seem to be down quite a lot, snap at people, or are pessimistic. There’s nothing worse than being in the company of a constantly depressed person, it brings your mood down too! Who wants to be sat with someone who always has a bad answer for everything? Or has a way of making you think badly of something because of the way they see things? Not I. I enjoy the complany of my friends, who are all bright and happy people, mainly because I am at the centre of their happiness obviously! Hmm, maybe that’s because I’m always saying things without thinking… I thought Eddie Murphy was dead! I then realised, I was thinking of Freddie Mercury! An easy mistake to make… Maybe not. I have made the mistake too of thinking mongolia was a breed of dog… It is infact a country, and it is a mongrel that is a dog. This does seem to amuse those around me.

Something tells me I should rethink the idea of applying for mastermind, I may just end up making a fool of myself and end up on Outtake TV instead! Or worse, youtube! :O I suppose it’s one way of getting your name known. If you don’t mind people thinking you lack intelligence! Which although I don’t, is pretty hard to deny now… Ah well, c’est la vie! You only live once!

Happy Valentines

Happy Valentines to all single and taken people! The day of love is finally here. Many of you have been waiting for this day, waiting to make it something special for a loved one, and many of you have been dreading it, with no-one special in mind. Valentines day is a day of love… Where you give cards to those you love. For all the single people out there, spend the day with a friend that you love, or with family. I for one, know many people who dislike this day because they feel alone. Why is it that today that they feel more alone than usual?

After spending a lovely day today with my valentine, I am spending the evening alone. Why, may you ask? Well, it’s just how things worked out. Living miles away makes things just a little bit harder. However, he did buy me some beautiful presents A ’special girlfriend’ Me-to-You bear, and a big heart shaped slab of chocolate from Hotel Chocolat. A tear literally came to my eye just reading the card. That is what happens when you are an emotional person! But being alone, does not mean that it has to be awful, or lonely, or even depressing. Infact, a night out with the girls, (or lads if you’re a guy) is just the ticket to a good night!

For me, the worst thing about Valentines, is finding a present! Guys must be the worst people to buy for. No matter how much they try to deny it, they are. For women, there’s hundreds of different ideas, and in most shops, the valentines section is mainly for women. You just end up buying a man a cuddly bear, which we all know, to his mates will brush it off, but inside loves it to bits. Though we still feel stupid giving it to him.

This year I am biased, I have someone who is my Valentine. But is what some people think true? Is Saint Valentines Day really over rated and commercialised?

If you have love for someone, you should show it all year through, not need one day in the year to prove it

If everyone had this attitude, what would the world be like? Love should be shown throughout the year yes, but Valentines gives an excuse to go all out… make a brilliant night or day of it, and make it special. Personally, I feel that people who dislike Valentines day, are lacking something, lacking happiness, or even just afraid to show someone how they really feel. I love Valentines day, and No matter whether I spend it with someone or not, I always will.

Happy Valentines Day to all x

Something I can't explain

I don't know what it is, and I don't quite know how to explain, but I have this strange feeling inside! I feel ALIVE! I feel as though I could take on the world, anyone or anything. I feel like a new woman. I'm content with how my life is! No, I'm more than content! It's something amazing! I am who I am, and I wouldn't change it.

I feel grown up, living away from home. Although, I do still have my dad visiting me and doing my shopping, but who's going to complain of a helping hand? Not I! I am very very greatful to him :) for I was thinking I'd be living on soup for a while. Thankfully, not anymore. I often wonder how I could possibly live like my own mother and father, raising a family, doing their own cooking - Not just take aways! Able to pay for a house, run a car (which at the moment, my dad still does for me - insufficient funds on my part), support a family, work in a 'proper' job.

Now what we mean when we say a 'proper' job, is a job which is full time, and it is the only thing we are committed to.. No more education! That, is a proper job! I love writing. Yet never when I was child, did I know writing could be a job. Yes I knew people wrote books, but it never struck me it was an occupation. Likewise a journalist, or forensic scientists.. Whe you're young, there is quite simply only six main occupations. These being, doctors, nurses, vets, teachers, police and fireman. It was only as we grew up, the different occupations began broaden.

I for one remember wanting to be a pilot. Not a pilot of the cool military planes, like jets. No, I wanted to take people on holiday. I loved flying. The minute I was allowed to see inside the cockpit, I changed my mind. Even I didn't trust myself with that many buttons! My dreams changed from a pilot, to a T.V presenter, to an actress, to a journalist and writer. Not the greatest of wages, but as far as I was concerned, if I could live off it, I would be fine. As long as I enjoyed what I did, I'd be happy. Very Happy. And that is how I'm here today.

I seem to have everything right this minute.. Somehow. I have the best parents anyone could ask for, and best siblings too (well, as good as they get wen they're at the stage they are :P) I have an amazing boyfriend who I love to bits, some brilliant friends, ones I shan't forget in a hurry :) I am living in a rather nice place, which is a complete luxury when I see fellow students' places. Gosh I'm so lucky, and I love it! Not forgetting I'm doing a course at University that I enjoy. Well.. aspects of it.. Hehe but all is good,and I couldn't ask for things to go better right now.

If I could go on about what is making me happy right now, We'd all be here for weeks reading this. So I shall depart, and return soon. For now, goodnight!

Mistakes

Everyone makes mistakes, some are able to be made right, some aren't. You never realise how much you miss something, or someone until you leave them behind. I made the mistake of taking someone for granted. Although people may think that as a family, mine are all very close, to an extent, maybe, but not as much as they think.

For years I have taken my mum and dad for granted, I guess I've just been lucky that I've always had them. They've always been there for me, through everything. It wasn't until tonight when I realised, just how much my mum means to me. I had the most indepth talk on the phone with her, and I can't even find words to say how nice it was to hear her voice, and have someone to talk to so much. I know I can tell her anything, I've just always chosen not to, but tonight, something changed.

I had never wanted to talk her so much in all my life, the one person I can trust with everything, one I know can help me, cheer me up when I'm down, have a laugh with, and tell my secrets to. Tonight I realised that my mum means everything to me, and I love her so much. I regret making the mistake of taking her for granted. Mum, I love you <3. Thank you for tonight, and thank you for always being there.

Friendship

Is there ever a time when everything actually does go right for you, and if there is, does it last very long? Is there any hope out there for us who don't quite have it all? No matter how much thought you put into something, it never goes to plan, or happen in the way you want it to.

Friendship is important. Or so I was always told. Maybe it's how people are brought up, the values of things are different with each individual. For me, friendship was always high up, just under family. 'Friends may come and go, but family will always be there' is what my mum kept telling me, with each little falling out I had with friends years back. I thought I'd grown out of them games. Though it seems I'm not quite as mature as I thought.

Loss of a friendship never gets easy. In fact, for most, it gets harder as you age. The older you are, the more friendship means. It also means more serious issues to fall out over. But what if, what if the reason you fall out is neither childish, nor serious. What if it is simply a difference in opinion, or even just about friendship itself.

Is friendship really that important? Is it not worth salvaging? The best friendships are not always the longest, it's the communication. The best friendships are the ones where there's practically nothing you can't talk about. Where you make each other feel good, look after each other, be each other's rock.. The shoulder to cry on. The best friends are the ones that stand by you no matter what.. Won't have their opinions changed by what they hear, and will be there the minute you need them. That's a true friendship.. And that's something to be valued.

Think about the friendships you have, and the ones you cherish the most. Is anything worth losing a true friend over? Is there anything that can be done to save a friendship, or rebuild? Or is it just destroyed the moment that bond is broken?

New Year, New start

So it's 2009, a new year, new start, new blog!
What better time to start blogging? It's a new me, so I thought I'd try something new.

I don't know about anyone else, but for me, 2008 was a fairly bad year. For those who know me, you'll be aware I wasn't the happiest I could be. The usual, a break up, putting on weight and being miserable.. Worrying about things I didn't need to.. exams results etc, but I lost someone dear too. Until this year, I'd never experienced the effects of a death before. Sure I'd lost people, but I was far too young to understand. November 8th saw the inevitable loss of Elizabeth Leyshon, the bravest girl I knew, who for three years fought brain tumours and passed away in my arms at the age of 14. I'd never reached such a low, but she's in a better place, away from the pain and suffering.

Though she's gone, and I still miss her, I don't find myself waiting for anything, or worrying. I don't have any weight on my shoulders, I can be happy, and I am.
This year could be my year, who knows? It could be anyone's year! This is a new beginning, and I'm starting it on a high. I'm happier than I've been in very long time! I have things to look forward to, rather than things to dread, I have reasons to be happy, not to be sad. I've started this year, by loving myself, in the sense that, I'm not hating how I look because of my weight, I'm loving it, I'm happy with it, and I feel great! As most girls know, when you once again fit into your favourite pair of jeans, you feel on top of the world, and for me, that feeling's lasted for 3 weeks so far and still on going! :) 2009 is the year for happiness.

Don't let fears or worries get in the way of happiness. Life's too short. Lizzy proved that.